A Losing Game

I don’t expect you to understand
The words I have never said.
They got lost among the strands
Of the ragged covers on the bed.

In dreams induced by feverish angst
I spoke the truth just once.
The rest were lies mostly advanced
To calm my racing pulse.

Dripping with regret, soaked in pity
I could not move a limb.
Pale, fatigued, no longer pretty,
Undecided: to drown or to swim?

I don’t expect you to remember
The promises I have never made
I played a game and I lost forever
Everything that I put at stake

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by Nara Hodge

Nara Hodge describes herself as a lover of words who is forever in love with the sheer beauty of written word and in awe of the fiercely overwhelming power of poetry.
Nara is an award - nominated poet who writes poetry in English and Russian. She has been nominated for the Russian Literary Awards 'Poet of The Year' in two consequitive years -2017 and 2018. Twenty- two of her award-nominated Russian poetry pieces were published in the Poet of The Year 2017 nominees' poetry book. Further pieces of her poetic work have been published in the Anthology of Russian Poetry 2018.
She has collaborated with Spillwords Press where some of her most powerful poems in English have been published and successfully attracted a new wave of readership. She is currently an author at the Harness Magazine and looking forward to sharing more of poetic work here.
A believer in therapeutical writing, Nara often uses writing to express her pent-up emotions and to untangle her restless thoughts. She refers to her writing in general as Restless Reflections, which is also the title of her first poetry collection in English.
Nara has a Bachelor's degree in Philology of Russian Language & Literature and a Master's degree in English & Historical Studies.

She lives with her family in beautiful English shire near Oxford, The United Kingdom.


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