Flashes of loud music and my friend on the couch
Everyone dancing and laughing and drunk
So drunk
You’re there and I dance with you and your stupid face and your stupid hat
My friend smiles at me from the couch
You ask if I want to get out of there and I nod through the noise
Pushing through the crowds to get out
So drunk
Back at my room maybe I offered maybe you asked I don’t know
Still wearing that stupid hat
It’s all flashes somehow you’re on top of me and clothes are on the floor
And I don’t know what’s going on
So drunk
Pieces and pictures and voices jumbled in my brain I don’t know what order they go in
No asking just doing and I’m choking and crying and I can’t tell you to stop I am powerless God please let this end
I’m doing it wrong you get angry
So drunk
“Do you have a condom?”
I can’t remember the answer but I know it was no but you’re on top of me anyway
Moving my body controlling my body but I’m doing it wrong you get angry
Maybe if I turn around and for some reason I do I don’t know why I’m not fighting
So tired
My eyes can’t stay open I’m doing it wrong you get angry so much yelling
I’m wrapped in a sheet on my floor and you can’t find your stupid fucking hat and you keep yelling and finally I yell back but of course you don’t listen
Please just leave but you keep looking until finally Thank God you found it and the door slams
So tired
I wake up the next morning no clothes only a sheet with only flashes and pieces and pictures and voices
