they pulled me aside
to tell me
i should turn the volume down
turn down those blinding lights
“it is too much, honey,
too much”
they were whispering,
full of that thing
people here call
care
i don’t care – i thought
and got betrayed
by my own mind
one more time
one more time
silence growing
as days were passing
month by month
season after season
silence eating up my
arms and legs and insides
intoxicating my blood
drowning my fire
in its airless breath
and i was so full…
so full of screams
that couldn’t get out
of my lungs
i imprisoned them
and got imprisoned
by them
them…
them
it was always about them, wasn’t it?
you watched them scream
so fully and beautifully
meat on their bones
desintegrating
becoming a scream
itself
“can you save me?
can you teach me how to scream
it all out?
can you unleash me from this
silence?”
oh, darling, don’t be silly,
it would be too easy
it’s just you
you
you and the screams
wrapped in that
heavy
foggy silence.
Author: Maja
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Author Bio: Just another curious and creative soul on a journey through human experience. Learning, growing, expanding.
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