Slave to My Own Mind

Have you ever felt trapped inside the prison of your mind?

Knowing the thoughts you are succumbing to are extremely irrational but unable to break free?

My day-in, day-out struggle is striving to separate the logical from the illogical, the rational from the irrational, truth from lies, fact from fiction.

Imagine having to spend every day convincing yourself that you’re not a burden to everyone in your life. No matter how many times people assure you and try to put your worries at ease, you wake up every day with the same thoughts, going through the same cycle.

Every day you are plagued by these thoughts, you put on your armor and you spend the day fighting these thoughts off with a sword. By the end of the day, you’ve slain your dragons and conquered your thoughts. You experience a brief few hours of a relief where you feel you truly have space to think your own thoughts and make progress towards your goals.

But when you close your eyes for the night, you do so knowing the next day will bring the same barrage of thoughts, the same endless battle, you are Sisyphus and your battle will never cease.

Like this post? View similar content here: A Silent Room

by xpc454

Dr. Allison Quintanilla Plattsmier was born and raised in Nashville, TN. She graduated summa cum laude from the University of Tennessee at Chattanooga with a B.S. in Political Science: Public Administration and Nonprofit Management and a minor in Entrepreneurship. She went on to receive her M.Ed. in Community Development and Action from Vanderbilt University’s Peabody College and her Doctorate of Education in Leadership and Professional Practice at Trevecca Nazarene University. She completed an Elite Masters of Business Administration in four months through Smartly and is a Certified Nonprofit Professional, Certified Fund Raising Executive, SHRM Certified Professional, and Associate Professional in Human Resources.

Allison has a wealth of experience in the nonprofit sector including Associate Director of Programs and Development for the Transit Alliance of Middle Tennessee, Community Investment Manager for NeedLink Nashville, and Executive Director of the Tennessee Intercollegiate State Legislature (TISL) Foundation. She currently serves as Executive Director of the Jordan Thomas Foundation, as Project Manager of a nonprofit she founded called Close the Loop, and runs her own nonprofit consulting business, AQP Consulting. She has raised over $1.2 million throughout her time in the nonprofit sector earning her recognition as one of AFP’s 2018 Outstanding Young Professionals and specializes in nonprofit governance, strategic planning, donor psychology, and grant writing.

She is a member of the Rotary Club of Nashville, Nashville Kiwanis, Nashville Cable, the Association of Latino Professionals for America (ALPFA), Junior League of Nashville, Nashville Junior Chamber, the Association of Fundraising Professionals (AFP), MT|SHRM, Ellevate Network, the Young Nonprofit Professionals Network (YNPN), the National Association of Women MBAs, Pi Sigma Alpha Political Honor Society, and Golden Key International Honor Society. She serves as Secretary and Awards Chair on the board of Doing Good, as a board member and Professional & Civic Engagement Committee member for Futuro, as a board member and Civic Outreach Chair for Nashville Cable, as Treasurer of Healing Arts Project, Inc. (HAPI), and as an advisory board member of Moves & Grooves.

In her free time, she enjoys volunteering, reading, singing, kickboxing, and hanging out with her phenomenal husband, Kris, their son Quintan, and their three cats, Sheena, Jacinda, and Milo.

More From Poetry

To the girl searching for answers:

by Esther Gonzales

soil of growth

by Esther Gonzales

Thinking of Honey

by Mariah Ghant

The Recovery

by Valerie Gregorio

Pity Parties

by Brandi O'Brien

That static feelings when your leg is asleep

by Carla Naylor