The power of “I AM” Is something that started to slip out of my thoughts as 2020 started and I slowly started to see the world around me and knowing life is forever changed and how quickly the light and love in me faded to darkness, discomfort and fear.
By the last week of June, after months of feeling completely detached from my spiritual journey that I put so much work and energy into. The thought of feeling like I had taken too many steps back to ever get back to a place of feeling inner peace and healing while being kind and patient with myself filled me with panic and some days I felt crippled with anxiety, I lost my sense of self.
Being on a spiritual path does not mean that mental health can’t affect you. People believe you’re supposed to be this positive person who is always supposed to be love and light and be able to replace all negative into a positive experience all the time. This is the furthest from the truth.
I am an empath and I felt the world’s pain. I wanted to help others heal while I was silently suffering and putting myself and my feelings last. It had finally came to a point where I was so drained on ever level I would find myself so filled with panic and guilt for not being able to find my strength and the light I lost all sense of my hope, faith and self-worth.
What the last month brought me was the strength and courage. Every day, I would have to keep repeating mantras after mantras and some days it was exhausting and I would sometimes tell myself it shouldn’t be this hard to make myself feel better. Today I can tell you that by using those two words over the last month “I AM” has given me my wings and transformed me on such a self-loving path that I thought was never going to be able to ever reach again. I have seen miracles and overwhelming amounts of abundance these last few days some smaller some big.
I know it’s tough right now and some days it takes all your strength to get up and others may not understand why you just can’t stop your overwhelming anxieties. Keep going and know that you are not alone. Know that you will find deeper meaning and personal growth in the dark rather then the light. Also remind yourself that happiness is your birthright.
”I am the creator of my destiny”
”I am worthy of all things”
”I am happy”
”I am worthy